Christmas Cookies: Mini M & M Style

Long, long ago, I used to talk about how much I loved to bake and the peace and serenity that it once brought to me. What happened to that Ashley?! On dark and cloudy days I was known to bust out a baking pan, scrounge for whatever ingredients I could find, and whip something up just to have the aroma fill our home. Banana bread used to be the most common because our kids can NEVER go through a bundle of bananas and one or two were bound to turn black and be too soft. Even just last Christmas I was much more in the mood to bake than I currently am; maybe that's because I knew that Christmas break 2016 was the start of my 'Stay at Home Adventure,' and well, that season too has passed. 

I just realized that I sound like THE most depressed mother and woman ever as I type--sorry about that! The whole point of this post is to say, "HURRAY! I busted out the baking tools again!!" and I have a really yummy holiday cookie recipe JUST for you! So bear with me, I'm getting to the good stuff now. 

Through the multiple baking books that I have, and holiday magazines full of dessert recipes, it was trusty old Google who showed up for me last weekend. "Holiday cookie recipes" is what I searched, and I was brought to delish.com , where there were 80+ photos to look through. What caught my eye was MOSTLY that the recipe included mini M & M's. 

My kids hurried to my side, Pierson grabbing a chair and Reese climbing ON the counter. And there were incessant little voices saying, "Can I help?! Is it my turn?! I want to do it!" through this entire process. Somewhere in the middle of their cries I sappily told myself, "Ashley, you'll miss this," so needless to say, I allowed them to help as much as I could :)

These were called 'Christmas Drops' on this website and here are the ingredients you'll need: 

• 2½ c. all-purpose flour
• 1 tsp. baking soda
• 1 tsp. salt
• 1 c. unsalted butter
• ¾ c. granulated sugar
• ¾ c. packed brown sugar
• 2 large eggs
• 2 tsp. vanilla extract
• 1 c. white chocolate chips
• 1 c. semisweet or milk chocolate chips
• ½ c. red and green mini baking bits (M&M's mini baking bits)
  **PS: Totally forgot to include the brown sugar in the ingredient shot above, WOOPS. I promise I used it IN the actual recipe**

Baking Directions:

1. Heat oven to 375 degrees F. Line several baking sheets with parchment paper. In a bowl, whisk flour, baking soda, and salt.
2. In a large bowl, beat butter and sugars until light and fluffy. Beat in eggs and vanilla. Beat in flour mixture until blended. Stir in chocolate chips and baking bits.
3. Drop rounded tablespoons of dough 3 inches apart onto prepared baking sheets. Bake 9 to 10 minutes, or until cookies are browned at edges and no longer wet-looking in centers. Let stand on sheets for 2 minutes before removing to wire racks to cool.

**Just an FYI, I had to soften my butter in the microwave, because I am terrible at planning ahead. And I baked two batches for 10 minutes. They were incredibly soft, golden around the edges, and SO SO SO SO SO delicious.**

When Life Gets Messy, I Choose You

Several people have messaged me here on this platform and asked, "Do you and your husband ever fight? Your relationship looks so perfect and like such a dream." Well, I have some feedback on that and I think it's important to share. First, the answer is of COURSE we fight.

Our first year of marriage I got so angry that I flew out the front door of our apartment and drove to nowhere else than his sister's house; who in turn texted him and told him I was there. I don't think I was trying to hide? And I have NO idea what I was even upset about, but we have since made the agreement that neither of would ever get in our cars and leave during a fight. I can remember slamming a door in our second apartment and my husband then hopping up off the couch said yelling, "I CAN SLAM A DOOR TOO!" and of course the entire house shook when he did. I've called my mother sobbing, even when we also made the agreement that we wouldn't involve other people in our disagreements, unless we really had to. And we've had some really big ones, ones that I don't care to share about in this space or in this nature; because they've hurt, and they've left some wounds and open scars. But as you can see, yes, we fight. We recently had one of the biggest that our nine years have ever seen, but we both went to bed that night knowing that the other would be there in the morning. I think that a lot of people are private about their relationships, and of course, I largely am as well. I want to protect my husband and our kids and while a writer, I know there are boundaries. But I also think that honesty is important. Sometimes we get caught up behind the squares we see on Instagram and we are held hostage to the lies that there exists perfection.

Getting married at twenty-years old meant that I had a lot more growing up to do from the moment that I said, "I do." At the beginning of our marriage during our fights, I can remember thinking, "How will we ever move forward from this?" But we always did. Each day passed and with them, fresh years. I have realized that we will ALWAYS move forward. Promises have been broken, and there have been moments of anger, frustration, and perhaps, even resentment. Which is why I am so thankful for a Savior; for the Creator who from His hands, made both my husband and I. And I don't believe for a second that He makes mistakes. When He brought us together, He knew that I could be hot tempered and Asa could be head strong. I can kill with words and he can get loud. And when those things happen, we can take a breath, look at each other, and remind each other that we DO love one another. You've probably at some point said it yourself, "I don't like you, but I do love you." There are times when I feel as though I really don't LIKE my husband. And he doesn't like me. But we will always love each other. 

Recently he and I were circling back and trying to find some closure and here was his response: 

"After I dropped Reese off at school, I had a long drive to think and pray. As I prayed and worked through the emotions of the fight we were having, it became really clear that I wasn't going to leave, I wasn't going anywhere. The only option was to fix it. To do the work to make things right. To own what I needed to own, to learn from our fight and to figure out how to restore our marriage to love. Leaving wasn't an option, so there was only one real direction to go. For me, healing always starts with the decision of which way we are going. And I'm choosing to always come back to you."

My husband can be a real tear-jerker with his words and ultimately, with how he loves me. Honestly, our recent fight had me in that, "WHAT am I going to do?!" type mindset. The one where you feel lost and confused and all you see ahead is gray. I thank God that Asa brought my eyes back to the colors of our beautiful life, and that he reminded me that I too, will only ever walk forward.

I choose you, Asa, and I thank you for choosing me; even and especially when things get messy. I do a great job of capturing the beauty that is in our household, but please remember that those are because I largely want to remember the good, not because the bad doesn't exist. When I need to decide what direction to go, where to love, I choose the good. I choose you.

Cookies with the Kids: Making the Holiday Sweet

If you have young kids, I'm sure this time of year is similar in your household--look for ALL the ways to create memories with the little ones, regardless of how messy or chaotic it may be. Christmas cookies are something the kids have been SO eager to create, and I kid you not, I have never seen them work more intently on something EVER. No exaggeration here--they did this ALL morning long!! 

We packed as many cookie cutters would fit on to the dough, and it was so cute to see the kids press down soooo firmly and gently pull the shapes out. There wasn't a favorite, they loved ALL the different cutters, however you obviously know that mine was the horse. 

We rolled dough and cut shapes and rotated pans in and out of the oven all morning. If you're reading this and you don't yet have kids but think that you want some one day--I encourage you to try to remember this one small piece of advice in your future: foster happy, positive, love filled memories in your household. If you know me, you know that I don't really love messes. I don't know if there are moms who LOVE a mess, but there are probably a LOT who handle the whole thing better than I do. For this though, I saw the flour covering our favorite dining room table, the one that has signatures underneath it from the people who have sat around it, and I tried to breathe it all in. 

Every single crumb. Every single drop of dough that was getting caked on to my hardwood floor. The flour went into the crevices of the table and the kids were wearing a LOT of it. But it was a rare occasion of no fits, no temper tantrums, no anger or meltdowns. It was a morning of determination, innocent conversations, and sharing of frosting and sprinkles. 

I walked away to take a shower came back, and they were STILL decorating cookies, completely enthralled with creating holiday whimsey. 

Do you remember what your childhood was like around the holidays? I'll never forget the no-bake chocolate cookies, my FAVORITE peanut butter balls, the rice Krispy treats my mom made, and the many other desserts that were made. 

Christmas was special when I was kid. When we first get married and before we had our children, I remember how romantic if felt that we simply had each other. And now... NOW, Christmas is pure magic. These are the parts that I never want to forget. I'm a little scared I'm going to remember a LOT of challenges brought to the table by my strong-willed child and not necessarily the goodness that existed amongst it. So here's to documenting, capturing, and holding on to every ounce of magic that happened this sweet Saturday morning. And trust me, it was SWEET! I

Oh, I've mentioned several times that my husband is an elf, well, you just look at the next photo and try and tell me he's not ;) 

What is one of YOUR best holiday memories? Either from your childhood, or from YOUR child's childhood? It feels so long ago that our kids were babies, and that they were having their 'first Christmas...' I should probably stop before I break down crying and end up inconsolable unable to post this. But my goodness they don't lie when they tell you time flies. That you'll blink and they'll be grown. Four and five years have somehow flown away, and those are years I won't ever get back. Very much reason to create and enjoy these precious moments, right? 

Happy Holidays, Y'all! 

Be Merry: Christmas Cards with Artifact Uprising

I have always been an avid lover of ALL things Christmas and with that, Christmas CARDS. Since our very first Christmas together, I have always loved designing, ordering, and sending out cards. Last year we had quite the fiasco with our experience which was so unfortunate because I had used that company for years. That's why I was extra grateful when Artifact Uprising was willing to partner with me on our 2017 Christmas Cards, and really, I wish I had used them all along! 

We went with the Foil-Stamped Merry Card, and I just love how they turned out! I'm so thankful to my sister in law Jana for taking our family photos this year, you can check her out here and see more of her lovely photography! The card size is 5x7, and photos are printed on 100% recycled paper. An amazing new addition this year for Artifact Uprising [and super awesome for you ordering these beauties!] they will now address your envelopes FOR you. You can choose your recipients' address and a return address, or a return address only [which is what I did, because I still have to hunt for every single address I send these to.] Printing for either is $.40 per envelope [totally worth it!] 

The kids got extra in to the Christmas card sending this year, and were actually a HUGE help in stuffing and licking envelopes. WHEN did they get old enough to do this though!? I mean seriously!! Wasn't it just yesterday that they were babies on the front of our Christmas cards, and I was updating the world of their first steps and victorious sleep wins? 

In all seriousness, that's what makes printing Christmas cards that much more special to me. Every year I save a card for US, and they're all stored in my big photo box collection. This year's is one for the books, and I know in the years to come I will look back and smile at our Pierson and Reese; just four and five-years old, smiling so big on that 35-degree day we took that photo on! 

If you like what you see here and would like to try printing YOUR precious moments on an Artifact Uprising holiday card, today is your lucky day. This sweet company is offering you, my readers, 20% off your order! Just use the code AG20 for 20% off holiday cards, valid 11/28 - 12/5! I know a LOT of you ordered your free prints through my last special with Artifact Uprising and you told me how excellent the quality and photos turned out. You will not be disappointed with these either, friends. And hey, if you order after reading this post? Feel free to mail me a card, I'd love to see your sweet fam!